I hold myself together ever so well
A smile through the pain
I broke down for a moment
Only just a moment
I picked up the peaces
Put back together
And you will never know how weak I truly am
But I know how weak you are
All of this
It reviles your fear
Your love,…. Overcome by fear
Your sense of what you’re losing
Overcome by fear
This path that I’m on
Is it time to turn
Turn out of this bond
The bond that holds me
Is this path the freedom
I’ve been looking for so long
Is it, in this moment, I find it true
What I have prevented for so long
Too long, I guess
I can’t do this
I won’t
But I let myself still
It slipped out
Without my control
With no control
It’s here
It’s time
Am I really saying this again
So long
An eternities time
Here, this, now
It roles of the tong like a saying from childhood
All on my own
But calm as ever
My element, my place
Whatever the out come
Good or bad
I’m finally at peace
Even if for just this one moment
This was my year
This was my chance
My only chance
To rip that away
Years to early
I sit and watch
But I can’t handle it
Reality hits
And I brake
This is right
This is right on so many levels
All the talk, over all the time
All the months that have gone by
The good and the bad
The hard and the sad
Not all in the past
But all passed on
Yet I start it all again
Before even one finish
This is wrong
Wrong on so many levels
I’m so scared
I feel so trapped
I don’t know what to do
If she tells, what then
If she doesn’t…
HELP
Once apon a time, I had so much to tell you, I wanted you to know everything, Just the fact i was talking to you made me happy, I always wanted to talk to you, To be next to you, Once apon a time.
If I had just one magic wish
I’d wish away tears that drip from my eyes
All the things that I miss
All the deceitful lies
To make these feeling diaper
The flow of this medicine down my throat
For only a night I fear
To through on my coat
And forget this life
To swallow this pill
Or hold a tight grip on my knife
Just for my next fill
I want it so bad
That feeling…or lack of
For those problems to be a had
They no longer shove
You sit there claiming to be my friend
My friend of all friends
My best friend
But as times approach
To prove your worth
You fall to short
Spread to thin
To many, to long
When does it end
With my last remaining oz.
For my last remaining mend
To this friendship
To this life, beyond
I just want peace
From this feud
Lifelong…
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